{"id":2977,"date":"2023-01-29T20:10:42","date_gmt":"2023-01-29T20:10:42","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/?p=2977"},"modified":"2023-01-29T20:10:42","modified_gmt":"2023-01-29T20:10:42","slug":"blue-gunshots-eating-shoes","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/?p=2977","title":{"rendered":"Blue, Gunshots, Eating Shoes"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><a href=\"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/01\/Cobalt-Blue-scaled.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"768\" src=\"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/01\/Cobalt-Blue-1024x768.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-2978\" srcset=\"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/01\/Cobalt-Blue-1024x768.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/01\/Cobalt-Blue-300x225.jpg 300w, https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/01\/Cobalt-Blue-768x576.jpg 768w, https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/01\/Cobalt-Blue-1536x1152.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/01\/Cobalt-Blue-2048x1536.jpg 2048w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/a><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>Pops of blue.&nbsp;&nbsp;Against what.&nbsp;&nbsp;Skeins of gray.&nbsp;&nbsp;Lure of monochrome.&nbsp;&nbsp;Screens of violence.&nbsp;&nbsp;At 5 am I watched a match between two women, battling over tennis balls in Melbourne.  Seven shot dead in Jerusalem after praying.&nbsp;&nbsp;Grainy witness to the Memphis flaying.&nbsp; Keening and pleading for his mama.&nbsp;&nbsp;Around the world in an hour.&nbsp;&nbsp;    In a dream around 7, I was eating the soles of a pair of black leather shoes, peeling off pieces.&nbsp;&nbsp;These delicate shoes, full of eyelets, usually sit in my closet.&nbsp;&nbsp;After my first rush of radiance, ecstatically led by someone offscreen, the dream began to think: disgust side by side with beauty: the shit. &nbsp;&nbsp;Appeal and revulsion, beautiful and the monstrous.  Nestled in.&nbsp;&nbsp;And the hilarity of pragmatism: would I walk like a bird, scratching out a steady path with half the shoe gone.&nbsp;&nbsp;Missing pieces. &nbsp;Was I practicing for starvation in Leningrad?&nbsp;&nbsp;During the siege in the 40s, they scraped off glue from shoes and tables.&nbsp;&nbsp;   Also, I was observing my oral French.&nbsp;&nbsp;Somehow that mattered.&nbsp;&nbsp;A traveler\u2019s exile ends in language.&nbsp;&nbsp;Wrens meet at the branches of a bush beak to beak, nose to nose as if mistletoe.&nbsp;&nbsp;Pebbles on a gray slate play with their shadows, not a cat and mouse game, one will always prevail.&nbsp;&nbsp;The open emptiness of cobalt blue.&nbsp;&nbsp;Pop pop pop.&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Pops of blue.&nbsp;&nbsp;Against what.&nbsp;&nbsp;Skeins of gray.&nbsp;&nbsp;Lure of monochrome.&nbsp;&nbsp;Screens of violence.&nbsp;&nbsp;At 5 am I watched a match between two women, battling over tennis balls in Melbourne. 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