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Lightness of spirit! I had been chasing my joie de vivre, wondering where it could be hiding. I had been on the front lines of culture wars, in the trenches, laboring to talk to all sides. I was looking for the seams of illumination. But the heavy load became leaden; I acquired a leaden walk. Even when tamping it down, I felt leaden. Even in Paris, I said this has long legs. The world has long legs and arms, and every armature to invade our spirit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Lightness of spirit <\/a>\u2013 how? Lightness \u2013 how to remember giddiness, a spritz, a throwing off of weight?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I dreamed of a man leaning against a wall. Every time I looked, he had an open passage on his chest, as if his upper cavity were an aquarium. He had waves within him that surged and coursed but never overflowed. Three times I looked, and his chest was still transparent and full of bright water. It was the first night of Hanukkah. Magritte dans les r\u00eaves?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Then, with no warning, no reason, no nothing, all that heaviness lifted — oof! gone! — a clear surge of water swept through. It happens. I had to wait to touch the original part of self birthed by wonder. I had been burnishing my list of things I love about Paris and who wouldn\u2019t be grateful, but I needed the bolt of light. Wonder again! The gray weather now still sits on my eyebrows, \u201cla grisaille s\u2019est assise sur mes sourcils,\u201d but my eyes are seeing \u2013 the fabulous, in spite of everything. Including. Everything.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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