{"id":3596,"date":"2025-11-16T21:29:08","date_gmt":"2025-11-16T21:29:08","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/?p=3596"},"modified":"2025-11-17T20:04:21","modified_gmt":"2025-11-17T20:04:21","slug":"to-rachel-at-30","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/?p=3596","title":{"rendered":"To Rachel, at 30"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Rachel is ecstatic, sparks of static electricity traveling<br \/>to, from and between her and us\u00a0<br \/>She may have rubbed her back on a charged shag rug<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yesterday her last sunset in her 20s<br \/>5:04, only the sun\u2019s orange cap, 5:05, cap sinks into purple haze,<br \/>Sky smolders<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>In French, the anesthesiologist and I critiqued the Deer Hunter&nbsp;<br \/>since I grew up in Pittsburgh<br \/>and there was no time for pain killers<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>The other doctor caught her<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Her perfectly etched rose lips<br \/>in minuscule<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>A child who droops at crepuscule.&nbsp;&nbsp;The&nbsp;<br \/>partial darkness, the haunted transition.&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>A child attuned to melancholy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Though she could stand in a blue wooden door<br \/>and shout at the wind: Va-t\u2019en, va-t\u2019en!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Born under the sign of empathy&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>She went to neo-natal<br \/>I went back to my bed, sighed;&nbsp;<br \/>picked up Crime and Punishment<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>She\u2019s always opened me up<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Simultaneity: that brown baby gaze pouring itself<br \/>into its beloved (at three months), again, now,&nbsp;<br \/>those soft defenseless gazing eyes<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Haze is creeping on one side, as if everything we are seeing<br \/>is through memory<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Are we getting sentimental<br \/>Trees wear their fur-lined glove inside out<br \/>Eternity parallels the horizon like orange crush<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>No beginning or end at either end<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>And all the dusk netting, then night netting<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>The sister weavers do their work by feel<br \/>Drunken shafts of light filtering through the weave<br \/>of cypress<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Monterey, to be exact<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>As she paints her burger with an exactitude of ketchup,<br \/>she wipes each plate as a fresh daily canvas.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Rachel is ecstatic, sparks of static electricity travelingto, from and between her and us\u00a0She may have rubbed her back on a charged shag rug Yesterday her last sunset in her 20s5:04, only the sun\u2019s orange cap, 5:05, cap sinks into &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/?p=3596\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[1123,629,649,1314],"class_list":["post-3596","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-adult-children","tag-birthday","tag-memory","tag-simultaneity"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p4D5qU-W0","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3596","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3596"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3596\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3613,"href":"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3596\/revisions\/3613"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3596"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3596"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3596"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}