{"id":3624,"date":"2025-12-15T00:29:39","date_gmt":"2025-12-15T00:29:39","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/?p=3624"},"modified":"2025-12-15T16:50:27","modified_gmt":"2025-12-15T16:50:27","slug":"providence-numb-and-number","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/?p=3624","title":{"rendered":"Providence, Numb and Number"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large is-resized\"><a href=\"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/IMG_5230-scaled.jpeg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"768\" src=\"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/IMG_5230-1024x768.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-3626\" style=\"width:621px;height:auto\" srcset=\"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/IMG_5230-1024x768.jpeg 1024w, https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/IMG_5230-300x225.jpeg 300w, https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/IMG_5230-768x576.jpeg 768w, https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/IMG_5230-1536x1152.jpeg 1536w, https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/IMG_5230-2048x1536.jpeg 2048w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/a><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I am sheltered on the second floor,<br \/>the house, when lit, is a fishbowl.&nbsp;<br \/>Helicopters never quit whirling over Providence.<br \/>They clip the air, giant locust wings, clip<br \/>and clip and clip, over gardens, greens,&nbsp;<br \/>sewers; when they quit, the silence of grief.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">In and out of the buzz of numbness.&nbsp;<br \/>We live it viscerally but our experience,&nbsp;<br \/>not yet cold, is already clich\u00e9.&nbsp;<br \/>Swat teams and ambulances,<br \/>camera lights flash and rant on glass.&nbsp; <br \/>A horror film that replicates.&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/><br \/>Our 19<sup>th<\/sup>&nbsp;century streets outlined<br \/>for the children\u2019s bodies.&nbsp;<br \/>What a corrupted reality.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I am sheltered on the second floor,the house, when lit, is a fishbowl.&nbsp;Helicopters never quit whirling over Providence.They clip the air, giant locust wings, clipand clip and clip, over gardens, greens,&nbsp;sewers; when they quit, the silence of grief.&nbsp; In and &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/?p=3624\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[1700,1696,1697,103,1701,1699,1698],"class_list":["post-3624","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-american-tradegy","tag-barus-and-holley","tag-brian-erickson","tag-brown-university","tag-gun-violence","tag-school-shootings","tag-student-tragedy"],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p4D5qU-Ws","jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3624","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3624"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3624\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3627,"href":"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3624\/revisions\/3627"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3624"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3624"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.jillpearlman.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3624"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}