I am not being dishonest when I say I don\u2019t like waking up at 6am.\u00a0\u00a0It makes me negative. I hear stories of high-achieving friends waking at sunbreak to write, to lift weights at the gym \u2026different species.\u00a0\u00a0It\u2019s only the leaking of the sun through the blinds that stirs me \u2013 I take in the morning\u2019s emanation, all objects like clay just thrown and still wet in that bluish light, waiting to be fired.\u00a0\u00a0My nerves, like theirs, also quiver…\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n
If I have no obligations, I will drift asleep at 7 into a savage world of my own interior, my dreamer standing at the glass, eavesdropping and observing myself with such precision I am often aghast.\u00a0\u00a0I have dreams that enact social satire about our tourist class \u2013 \u2018What actually IS a Rhode Island?\u201d \u2013 to appalling tests of motherhood \u2013 I\u2019m really eating live flesh?\u00a0\u00a0– to surprises of who\u2019s in bed with whom in what country \u2013 the full screen of entanglements.\u00a0\u00a0Then there’s the Russian doll metaphor.\u00a0\u00a0Walking into a Banana Republic while living in a Banana Republic — oh images on the screen, how crisp and precise!\u00a0\u00a0Get out your pith helmet, your jeeps, your fake smiles\u2026.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I am not being dishonest when I say I don\u2019t like waking up at 6am.\u00a0\u00a0It makes me negative. I hear stories of high-achieving friends waking at sunbreak to write, to lift weights at the gym \u2026different species.\u00a0\u00a0It\u2019s only the leaking … Continue reading