IMG_7361The novel Clio’s Mobile Home is a facet of my creative work. Several characters in my novel write poems; I am serious about writing poetry. I also work on short shorts, and short stories. They are all modes of thinking about identity, transcendence and beauty in contemporary life. Art keeps us aloft, but it is more than decoration. Its force can be astounding. The artist becomes an instrument, and art lives to tell the tale.

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Savage Truths of 7am

I am not being dishonest when I say I don’t like waking up at 6am.  It makes me negative. I hear stories of high-achieving friends waking at sunbreak to write, to lift weights at the gym …different species.  It’s only the leaking of the sun through the blinds that stirs me – I take in the morning’s emanation, all objects like clay just thrown and still wet in that bluish light, waiting to be fired.  My nerves, like theirs, also quiver… 

If I have no obligations, I will drift asleep at 7 into a savage world of my own interior, my dreamer standing at the glass, eavesdropping and observing myself with such precision I am often aghast.  I have dreams that enact social satire about our tourist class – ‘What actually IS a Rhode Island?” – to appalling tests of motherhood – I’m really eating live flesh?  – to surprises of who’s in bed with whom in what country – the full screen of entanglements.  Then there’s the Russian doll metaphor.  Walking into a Banana Republic while living in a Banana Republic — oh images on the screen, how crisp and precise!  Get out your pith helmet, your jeeps, your fake smiles….

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Wedding Miracles

What I loved — besides the volumes
of taffeta on the Korean mother’s dress, 

And the fleshy glow of the slightly
older bride,

And the plodding priest with his
fifty mentions of Christ, 

And the guests, as various as 
petals on all the bouquets,

With their canes, and Ivy ties,
decolletés, 

all the accents, the Slavs vodka-
scented, Koreans with a certain
sly detachment,

and the toasts, like in a film,
the miracle of love drifting down — 

was the man, out of place like the rest,
telling a bawdy story of standing

at the urinal many weddings ago,
when something drifted from his inner coat pocket

as he stood pissing beside an editor —
his poem, having escaped confinement,
landed in the froth.

The gentle man, already zipped up,
delicately picked the page up by its corner

and published it.

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Diaspora of Affections

Since nothing is ever complete, the poetry book I wrote about my mother, Diaspora of Things, seems like a light-sensitive print of where I was a few years ago.  The relationship keeps evolving.  The deeper I get into motherhood – all these years now! – the more I slide alongside her, intuiting her unsaid about joy, loss, “annoying aspects of inevitable change,” freedoms gained and realities of our limits.  In strange morning dreams, so kitchen-sink and unsentimental, I’m waking up to the twists that adult children exert on mothers, and how much I got away with!  Doris had a taste for the radical, and more patience than I give her credit for.  To the complexity and mystery of motherhood, and the sister-soul that walks along with us on our journey!

Painting by Eve Dora O’Shea

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Spleen-y Ode to Spring

Imagine wasting spring days jaundiced, 
brooding, noting how magnolia petals 
from tree nuptials became fulsome 
brown slurry, mucilaginous, underfoot slippery 

And all Americans, scout-like, ready at any moment, 
have cars built to transport a casket—
their neighbor, the sudden hearse of their president

And when an elderly couple rushes riverside, 
a great flooding of light makes surreal
all red taillights, neon signs, 
sheer gold siding of an office building,
turning oil tanks into desert spectacles

They think it’s a landing of E.T. spaceship,
a redemption, something to heal
this psyche-shredding moment. 

And then it rains – then the sun slices –
the carnival with a sneering grin.

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Healing according to our Sages, the Grass

My rebbe was quoting his rebbe
who was quoting the Grass:

Grass: The vitality pushing through us
is stupendous. The green appears
from monochrome, from the shade
into a shadeless shameless glow.
Every blade is singing from the force
of its lit universe. Psychedelic!  
No trade-offs, no slippery motives.   
Today, now, pick herbs from our 
healing garden. Leave the narrow places, 
(suffer the stabs of pain in leaving),
let the grass, even in the cruelest month, heal.

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Good Friday according to Delacroix

Delacroix liked to paint on Sundays
A dabbling Sunday painter he was not

He never shied from drama
He was overwrought

His Mary is the cross
His Christ an afterthought

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March: A Sooty Skin

The pristine snow,
abandoned, sinks—

a sooty skin.

Broken objects
rise up.  An arm,
stairs, 
cardboard
boxes shocked
by fetid air

My head

pushes from 
the mud, the primordial

churn, seething,
thick with salty
activity. 

Shit or fish sauce?

Call 
it March. 

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Uber Drivers at AWP

Updating Descartes: I travel so I can talk to strangers.  Updating Descartes again: I travel so I can reality-check the words of writers against the wisdom of Uber drivers.  Using that as a measure, AWP was stupendous!

No wonder we pay drivers to sit in their cars for twenty, thirty minutes, through traffic snarls and horrifically inflated rates.  One driver, slung back in his seat of his Toyota Corolla, reeled off a lovely phrase about not recognizing what privilege is when we have it.  That line could stand in any poem, I said, as I’d been sitting through a lot of poetry readings.  He told me his line was borrowed; I added that we pick up a lot of folk wisdom through pop songs, rap, movies.  He upped me: through Socrates, Plato, Aristotle and Marcus Aurelius.  

Getting into another Uber, I asked the driver how he was.  “Any day I’m still alive is a good day.”  What an opening line, even if we’ve heard it before. I got to hear about Mamma in rural South Carolina, his 94-year-old mother-in-law, the whole array of sisters down there, the food and beverage that comes with visitors, the testifying, the cigarettes and coffee that fortify the old lady.  He was beaming the whole time.

When I told the first driver about an award-winning book of poetry written about conversations heard by a cabbie, he was incredulous.  “Are you telling me that book won awards?” Indeed.  “Bor-ing,” he said.  “I’d shut that in a second.” 

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Mr. Universe

It’s an all-white affair, the blizzard sweeps
in with style, its blinding white tux,
bow tie and stiff starched shirt,
its grandeur, its threats and proclamations,
its show of power. In a flick of its
handsome wrist, it shows us who’s who.

How blankly we stare at its parts,
its top hat and white entrails,
wanting, not wanting its magic entourage
to disappear.

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The Olympic Curse: Something Rotten in the State of …


There is something rotten in the state of Denmark.  Which is the self-evident reason why American Olympians keep blowing their races.  The magnificent gods of snow and ice, Americans about to be anointed in their draped flag, have gotten tangled in their backflips.  Inversion seems to be the rule.  First it’s Elsinore, then it’s its flip of a coin.  Apparently rottenness, when it is truly rotten, doesn’t understand the concept of borders.  A curse will spread across innocents of a nation.  Unexpectedly the athlete’s edge will be off, the calibration of body and mind will be unlaced by silky unseen hands. Poor athletes, who have sacrificed for years, get caught in the crosshairs of the sometimes arbitrary but knowing judges, more godly than they.

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